I really didn’t learn that much from my media break. I was doing pretty well until I made a decision that made me realize I’ve got way too much of my power wrapped up in external trappings. I’m reminded of the Samson and Delilah from the Old Testament:
Samson’s strength lay in his hair. He confided that secret to Delilah, who betrayed him to his enemies. His hair was cut and he was blinded. And he lost all of his strength.
So, I cut my hair and in doing so, I lost my sexy. I love the ease of the new cut. It really is super easy. And I’m told it’s flattering. And I see it on pretty much every menopausal woman I see. And I feel frumpy.
And when I feel frumpy, what do I do? I act frumpy. I don’t take care of myself. Instead, I abuse myself. Yep – out of control eating.
I had not connected the dots before. The last time I had what I considered a bad hair cut, I gained 30 lbs. This time – hopefully only around 5. The 5 I had probably lost.
So – what to do? Recognize the trigger and choose to react differently. I may not be able to grow my hair out overnight, but I can wear it well, do my face up right and carry myself with confidence. And I can do other things that make me feel sexy and beautiful.
Damn – what are those thing? I really and truly have put all my sexy eggs in one basket! What makes me feel sexy?
Wearing beautiful clothes that fit. Hmmm – I have a few.
Making sure my nails are done -will do that this afternoon
Enjoying scrumptious food without guilt (hello donut whisperer)
There it is again – DANCING.
I can do that.
So – I just needed to tap into my inner being for the key. And that key is moving in a way that turns on the endorphins. Dancing really does help with that – I’m listening and grooving to music I love.