… the knowledge that I need a plan and some accountability to stick to the plan.
While i have no desire whatsoever to let my weight and weight management efforts be the sole focus of my life ever again – I am not happy with my weight and how I feel. So what I’m doing isn’t really working. (Maybe because I’m not really doing anything?)
I have one main resistance to having a plan: my husband’s sensibilities. He hates planning and furthermore he hates planning healthy meals. He wants to eat what he wants when he wants and he’s lost 20+ lbs in the last year doing just that. I don’t like upsetting the apple cart. We
And I have other areas where I resist taking care of myself – lots of
- Too much to do at work to stop and take care of myself
- DH’s time sensibilities (this one is hard, actually)
- My own time sensibilities and priorities
Hmm, I think Priority is a word that nails my own excuses. I put almost everything in front of my own personal well-being. Not just external stuff (work and DH) but my own stuff as well.
I also need to respect that this is where I am right now. Some of it I need to nudge back to a better balance. But nudge is the best way I think.
For me to feel the way I want to feel (I’ve been struggling with the Core Desired Feelings this week), I know I need to do the following:
- Journal consistently – pen and paper
- Gently move consistently – Barre3 and I seem to have made friends
- Eat in a way that makes me smile – what my body needs with a little thrown in to make my tastebuds thank me and only until I’m no longer hungry.
To make these more specific goals:
- Get up before DH and journal every morning. What do I need to do this? Plant my journal downstairs, find a way to wake before him without waking him, and then just start doing it. Just thinking – maybe a get pretty box or closed basket big enough to hold my journal, pen and a candle. I can put this box on the shelf of the end table by the sofa. Then I journal downstairs without bothering DH and also get myself a cup a tea. Basically recreate the journal ambiance I created for myself when I lived alone and journaled almost every day.
- Moving more. This will take discipline and I think I also need to change it up so that I’m not just doing Barre 3. I love to dance to funk (usually after 1-2 glasses of wine). There’s no reason why a couple times a week I can’t queue up Prince and others and dance for a bit. Bonus – this will promote my desire to feel sexy.
- I truly do not want to log calories. Perhaps I should take a picture of my meals – have I laid them out in a way that makes me smile? Are they yummy and good for me? I made baked oatmeal last week (recipe from MFD) and unfortunately, as good as it was, it did not make my body smile. I ate it every day and each day into the week, my digestive system became more and more wonky. So – back to a better plan for breakfasts. Not sure what it will be yet. And I’m thinking of salads for lunches at work and soups for when I’m working from home. Pretty salads. Lots of lean protein, veggies (we eat a lot of steamed broccoli – I can make extra to put on the salads) and of course greens. Anyway – food need to be easy. And I’m working on it.
OK – we have the making of a plan. Howe do I make myself accountable? Honestly blogging here every day will not happen. I love my blog and it is not a daily priority. I think I will start a “How did you do today?” thread on MFD and use that for accountability.
Speaking of MFD, it’s amazing how much that site has changed but not changed. The forums used to be so active I found them overwhelming. Now – they seems very hit or miss. I’m not sure I truly fit in – but that could be just me. I know one thing – there are posters on there who are undermining (not deliberately of course) my resolution to not buy any more self-help books this year.
That’s it for now. Need to think about groceries and a meal plan for the week.