I love that I’m working through an evolutionary process. With some more journaling today, I’ve come up with a new list of desired feelings – these seem to feel better than last week’s list. More me.
Feminine – as I gained weight, I lost feeling pretty and feminine. I still am – I just let feeling that way be buried. What can I do to feel feminine? Eat well, take care of my skin (ie, slather on some yummy lotions), dress nicely in clothes that fit well, acknowledge my beauty to myself (yeah, that sounds vain, but right now that may be in order).
Strong – no physical activity = no physical strength. I’m strong in many other ways, but I am not as strong as I’d like to be physically. There’s one good way to change that – exercise. There’s also a good way to feel stronger immediately: maintain a good posture.
Integrity – I’ve lost this with myself (this feeling corresponds to Trust from last week). And I think it’s key. Very simply, I need to walk the talk.
Peace – this is almost always a desire for me. It manifests in many ways – getting my chores done, being responsible with money, getting my work done, journalling, taking time to knit, making tea.
Abundance – I surprised myself when I started listing what makes me feel abundance: good food and wine, laughter, alpaca yarn (or any other fine fiber), good chocolate, a good book. It really wasn’t about money except that I need it to get good wine, yarn and chocolate). I like this list.
So my week’s goals are:
Plan, Prep and Pack smile-making food for work (feeling feminine, integrity and peace)
Do Barre3 workouts at least 3x (feeling feminine, strength, integrity)
Stay on top of the laundry – doing each load to completion (feeling peace)
Journal (pen and paper please) at least once (feeling peace)
Paint my fingernails (feeling feminine)
Look for reasons to laugh (feeling abundance)
And that’s it.