… attachment to habits.
I’ve been all over the board today, but for the most part, my spare time has been spent surfing the ‘net. It’s something of a habit for me. Not sure if it’s a compulsion, but definitely a habit – and I indulge just about every time I have “nothing else” to do. But of course I do always have something else to do.
Another habit I have is making sure I eat all that is on my plate, even if it means I eat beyond my comfort level. It’s more uncomfortable for me to leave the food.
I’ve been looking at my habits this week and thinking about what I get out of them. Most of the time, the ‘reward’ is not having to sit through whatever feeling I might be feeling at the time. And I’m quite attached to that reward.
It’s the attachment that I really think I need to address. How to weaken it and if possible break it. When I think about how much I will gain if I start to break these attachments, I start to feel hope – and for once, not guilt.
And for the record, I have an unhealthy attachment to living in a stressed state. I actually think this may be the most important attachment for me to break.