Start Write Now: Writing History
I’ve been an avid reader for much of my life, especially as a child. And as a reader, I put writers on a pedestal where I felt I had no place.
I have always felt something was not quite the way it’s supposed to be with my life, especially my career. And I turned to all the self-help books I could get my hands on. (In retrospect, I don’t advise this course of action). One of the books was Julie Cameron’s The Artist’s Way. I didn’t get very far into the book – but I did get to the part about morning pages. I decided to try the exercise – get up and before doing anything else, write until 3 pages have been filled.
I didn’t do the exercise exactly as prescribed: I made myself coffee. I lit candles, burned incense and played soft music in the background. And I wrote. Somedays the writing was non-stop, I couldn’t keep up with the thoughts tumbling out. Other days, I’d write things like “I don’t have anything to say.” or “I’m sleepy.’
But the ritual resonated and I found myself not dreading waking up each day. Instead, I looked forward to the centering exercise. And I credit the exercise with helping make me healthy again. And now, as soon as I think of the ritual, I long for it. Sometimes I let the longing make me ill. Other times I just breathe through it and remember the centered feeling and let that feeling take over.
I’ve been thinking of this ritual quite a bit lately and I’m slowly making space in my life for it. There’s always time to take care of yourself – and for me, the best way to do that is by writing.